the Inner fear
Things are not rosy all the times. Just on Sat night, I had a huge fight with the boyfriend. The issue is still the same. The feelings are the same. The thoughts are the same. Boyfriend cannot understand why it is so hard for me to open up. He cannot understand what I'm so fearful of. He has come to this point that he felt that there's nothing more he can do. He has done his utmost best to alleviate the issue but it just keep coming back to haunt us. I gave him a dozen reasons but truly deep inside, I know these are not the real reasons. There's just something inside me that just kept wanting to shut people out. I don't know if you can label me as reserved. But it becomes a habit for me, to shut my mouth once I reach home. I don't engage in small talk with family members unless it is something I think is worth commenting. I don't open my mouth in the morning when I wake up, not for the 1st hour of waking up. And everyone has a past. My past is something I have n