The Apple's Diary!

I can't believe my ears when someone posed a question whether I'm working my helper too much. Hello! She gets more than 8 hours of sleep straight in a night while I still wake up and feed and pump, wash and sterilize twice a night. Who is more tired?! Seems like just because I'm home now on maternity leave, someone thinks I'm very free hor. I dare that person to take up the challenge of looking after a 2MO baby for one full week and then come and tell me who's more tired. And please, when I discipline my kid, stop telling me what to do and sing opposite tune. You had your chance before and you, you... stop making me being the baddy while you play the angel.

Hello everyone! My name is Jonathan... I am 2 month old today! Mummy has been caring for me since auntie left. I think mummy is doing well although sometimes mummy gets angry with me for being cranky. I got a new wardrobe last Saturday because I have outgrown most of my clothes. But mummy was very happy shopping for me :) I hope mummy will also upgrade my diaper size to M for me soon. Small diaper is very tight for me .. waahh waahhh

.... at the reunion with my long lost friend... my Teh-C. Decided to take the risk and had my first cup of caffeinated drink after so long. I must say... is heavenly!

I wanna be.... Hmm... let me think....

A gloomy news hit me in the early morning today. Feisty Princess Charmaine had parted the world. I have been following her story since it came out in the NewPaper in 2008. Her plight had touched many. This brave little warrior had put on a strong fight which lasted 4 years. I remember I was still single when her story first came to light, then over the years... I got married, bought a house, then got pregnant and now with Jon. Indeed, I feel doubly awful since I'm a mummy now. I can't imagine if my baby is taken away from me. Mummy Cynthia must be feeling even worse now. In a timely fashion, today's QT ( Our Daily Bread ) I am reminded how in our difficult period, we need not hang by our fingertips but rest peacefully in our Father's hand. This verse by Anon summed it all up. God’s hand that holds the ocean’s depths Can hold my small affairs; His hand that guides the universe, Can carry all my cares. —Anon.

Arranged an outing myself with a new-found friend. All decked out with Jonathan in the Manduca and traveling light. Verdict : Is doable with a short trip to nearby mall. I'm happy!

I smell freedom. I have my Manduca. I am set free!!!! After spending 2 hours at Baby Slings & Carriers , located at Square 2 and numerous demo and hands on practice, we paid $249.90 for my Manduca Newstyle in Black. Purchase with purchase was also done for the strap protector. Unfortunately it didn't come in matching colour. But I can't wait to use my Manduca. I can finally step out of the house alone with Jonathan. Shopping shopping.... here I come!

Mummy said I'm Jesus' little lamb....

My best yield so far... 130ml in a single pump session.

I suspected Jonathan could lift his head up when I did chest to chest burping when he was 3-4 weeks old. But I didn't want to risk him spitting out his milk so I waited till yesterday. Jonathan with his head lift, coming close to 7 week old. Since he was so alert yesterday after his milk and a round of flash cards, I put him on his tummy for the first time. He proved me right by holding his head up long enough for him to snap photos. Well done boy! Mama is proud of you!

1. I look crappy! Sigh! Messy hair, pimpled face, flabby thick arms. Pale complexion, dark eye circle. Another 4kg more to lose but my biggest grouse is my messy flyaway hair. I can't do much unless I stop breastfeeding. Wish I can head straight to the salon for a rebonding session, followed by a spa facial session, lastly a relaxing pedi and manicure. I need to be pampered! 2. Paid my $300 deposit for my maid. Sigh! Wonder why the girl at the agency make it sound like I'm making a very bad decision to hire a maid. Kept telling me the first 3 months, employers are likely to vomit blood, run into high blood pressure. The maid won't be able to do much, except eat and sleep. Sigh! Why can't someone invent a robotic maid? Turn it on when I need it, turn it off and tuck it away when the job is done! I need a miracle!

Jonathan is drinking far more than I could produce. In a desperate measure, I took on Fenugreeks. Still unable to meet the demand, I approached Dr Tan for help. I am glad he supported breastfeeding and encouraged me, giving me tips on how to boost up the milk supply. To kick start the moo factory again, he prescribed me Motilium. Motilium is used for gastrointestinal problem and its side effect was actually to raise the level of Prolactin which is the hormone that produce the milk. Dr Tan warned me that Motilium is no elixir and if it helps, then good. If not, I shouldn't take more than 2 weeks. Whatever it is, I am banking on it.

I went for my postnatal gynae check on Wednesday. Had a PAP smear done as well as ultrasound scan to ensure my reproductive system is good to go again. Since it was the last visit and Dr Tan Hang Yang is retiring next month, we seized the opportunity to have photos taken with him. It was also our first and probably last time we see Dr Tan beamed so widely when he carried Jonathan. Ah... the usual stern and strict Dr Tan softened at the baby's coos and smiles. Oops... and he is certainly a tall gynae compared. Nonetheless, we are thankful for his dedication and commitment throughout my pregnancy journey. We are also grateful that he helped to deliver Jonathan safely without any complication.

Time flies... Jonathan hit 6 weeks old on Wednesday, though technically he's still less than a month old (corrected from actual EDD). Brought him out on that day and I finally managed to fasten him to the seat belt. I wonder when he will be big enough to fill up the gaps in between.

Motherhood really holds a ton of surprises for me, mostly the unexpected. 1. Remember how I fear that Jonathan will fuss when we are outside, it turned out that he slept through most of our shopping trips that he got super cranky once he was home. 2. I never thought of giving up my piano teaching until Jonathan came along. It was a tough decision to make. In the end, I chose time with Jonathan. 3. I never expect my mum to suggest that she quit her job and helped me with Jonathan. I didn't even dare to ask her because I know she is needed by my elder bro with his two kids. So because of this sudden but life-saving change, we are getting a foreign domestic worker. Another dilemma as we really want our privacy yet we need help on keeping our place clean. I hope this extra help is really helping me then giving me extra problem.